Every day we play the "what's for dinner game" and try to figure out what we're going to eat and where we're going. I was on my lunch at work and I was talking to him on text messaging, and suggested that we pick up dinner and eat at the beach. 


I get off around sunset, so it's nice and we've done it before. After we finished eating, we walked down to a little cliff over looking the ocean, and we were kissing and he said that he loved me so much.  He told me that I was everything to him.  Then he asked if he could keep me (which is also something we have been doing back and forth for months), and I said yes.  He then said forever? and he then got down on one knee and pulled out the ring and asked me to marry him.

The smile has not left my face.  I love Cesar so incredibly much.

I know that I haven't really kept this journal as up to date as I used to.  And I've come to realize that I don't really write in my livejournal as much anymore either.  I realize that I used them as crutches to help sort feelings out and to have something to do with my time when not writing papers or researching or studying or hanging out with actual people.  And I have started using my written journal more, more for the privacy that paper has over the internet.  So for those who read this as a way to keep up with me, I am sorry. 

Anyway, my life is absolutely wonderful.  I still work at the same job, though I'm sick and tired of  it.  Cesar and I are working on finding me a much better job.  But for now, my life in the pharmacy has made going to work somewhat more bearable (the 2 days I am back there).  Most likely, I will be taking the GREs again and applying for grad school for Fall 2008.  It just didn't work out for this coming year. 

As for Cesar, I fell in love with him.  Plain and simple, I am in love with him.  I love him with my whole heart.  I trust him with every part of my soul.  In his arms, I have never felt safer.  I spend most of my time outside of work with him and it's wonderful.  We've been to many Angels games this summer and also many movies.  This past week, we went to dinner for Mary's birthday with a bunch of choir friends, which was fun.  Today we went to San Diego, just to hang out (well, there's a story that goes along with it, but that's the short of it).  For my birthday, we will be going to the Toby Keith concert.  And this Friday we're going to see Bill Engval at the OC Fair.  And to cap off our redneck month, we will be going to the NASCAR cup race on the 2nd at the CA Speedway.     He told me that it's been the best summer, and the most productive summer, of his life.  Seeing him happy makes me so incredibly happy.  I love seeing him happy and excited.